mother's day

I know mother's day is past, but we were away this weekend and i'm just gathering my thoughts now.  not to mention the mountain of laundry that had to be tackled first.  i'm not sure words will adequately describe the thoughts i have on mother's day and all it means to me.  certainly the aspect of feeling so blessed.  blessed to have the legacy of a mother and mother-in-law who set an amazing example for me, even now as i'm in the trenches....these two moms do it well.  they sacrifice constantly, and have since day one.  they care and invest.  they excel at their title.  then, to have experienced the miracle of birth with my four fabulous "homegrown" kids.  giving birth to them was such a gift.  they are treasures.  to add blessing to blessing~ my two adopted sons.  i struggle to put into this into words, and i often consider the risk of appearing overly dramatic as it relates to this subject.  ironically, i usually feel words often do little to bring justice to this topic.  i think adoptive parents really get this the most.  seriously, how do i thank the first moms of my sons?  and AJ's first grandmother as well.  giving birth to boys in meager surroundings, with none of the pre-natal advantages i was afforded during my pregnancies.  little to no monetary support, emotional support, or physical comforts we have here in North America.  no security or stability.  still, they gave birth, which gave life~ all the while wondering if their own health, circumstances, and futures would ever allow them to be there for these precious boys.  i'm thankful to these moms and grandmother who chose to care for these boys while they were still able, and forever indebted that when options dwindled they ensured the kids were taken somewhere safe where their needs were met. 
this week, three white roses sit on our table.  one for each~ to recognize their love, their pain, their sacrifices,  their struggles.  their agonizing decisions that ultimately brought my sons home.  so bittersweet.